I’m not on Tumblr much anymore because the political landscape got too toxic for me to want to deal with in even scrolling passing. I come back on and I’m having a good time for maaaaybe five minutes and theb I see someone fake a post to make white people seem racist and an anon accuse a white artist of ignoring other anon messages… because they’re “of color.” The senders are anonymous, they’re is absolutely no way to tell which race the sender is. So this person is left writing a groveling and confused apology for something they didn’t do. Like what the hell, tumblrinas. I came here for art and memes and y'all ruin everything.

I’m not normally a paranoid person (unless it’s govt haha), but something about this semester feels a lot less safe then the last year and half I’ve been here. I’ve never been catcalled, harassed, etc on campus before, but in these first two weeks I have been at least three times. And I’ve noticed a lot of… staring. I don’t know if it’s all the construction and sales faires bringing in weird people or what, but I’ve also even gotten some weird vibes from people I’m pretty sure are students. Idk I just don’t feel very safe right now and I’ve never been so glad I don’t live on campus.

So my aunt got an ancestry DNA test done and we found out that my dad’s side of the family is 100% German and French.

I always wondered why I’ve felt at war with myself.

It sucks when you’re like me and really don’t like Halloween, but love Autumn and harvest imagery. Because Halloween always bleeds into it and it’s just frustrating. I want to browse the new Fall decor in retail without screaming, screeching creepy Halloween things, please!

My friend wants to see Suicide Squad for her birthday, I compulsively make fun of terrible movies to get through them. I don’t want to hurt her feelings, how do I get through this without being an ass? I don’t drink… :|

I often wonder what I would manage if I didn’t worry about financial stability and the opinions of my parents.

Well June was a shit month. Summer has been awful so far, and I’m going to need some supernatural aid to get through July.

• Person: You must be relieved to be out of school! You get to relax all summer!
• Me: haha yeah it's not like now that I don't have all-consuming homework and deadlines I have all this brain space to think about the absolute crushing hopelessness of my aspirations for the future. Not at all! I'm not filling the stress void with resurging depression! Nope! hahahaa!

onE MORE EXAM then if I survive the rest of frappuccino happy hour, I’ll be free for the summer!

Me: Time to study for my first final exams.  Tomorrow will come too soon!

Bethesda: lol *drops Far Harbor DLC news*

Me: … well there goes all my concentration.