I cried in bed last night

Nikki asked me about it today, she saw the pictures online.

Everyone did.

That’s why the Board of Human Equalization posts them,

They think they can save us from our nightmares

And suicides

If the world only saw our pain.

Randomly taken pictures of us while we lay in bed,

On the internet to see.

The Community will keep you safe with their judgment.

Still, my mom made a flawless noose,

(Nikki’s did, too)

Don next door jumped from his roof,

(Emma did, too)

And as the Community tries to save me,

I want to smash that camera above my bed

And proclaim freedom to feel

To have a moment of weakness

And to ask God alone for help.

The eyes that always see,

The mouths that always question,

Are only trying to avoid

What their heads always think

What their hearts always feel

Because this Community

Is dying to help.