For anyone who notices, I’m unfollowing a lot of people right now. For the majority of them, I actually enjoy the blog or the artwork, but my mental health is not in a good place right now and too many blogs are sharing content that is negatively effecting me. There are just too many topics right now that are getting ugly, from doxxing to insults to threats to the usual media fair, I just can’t observe it in a healthy way anymore. There’s a chance I might follow those blogs in the future, when I’m healthy and things have quieted down, but not now.

Things that I miss (in no particular order):

1. No one criticizing me for my schedule
2. My purple/pink/whatever colored hair streak
3. Seeing the person I love every other day
4. Solitude without questions

Things that I don’t miss (in no particular order):

1. Feeling inept
2. Dying my hair every weekend
3. Worrying someone notice me with the one I love
4. Being alone while I lie on the floor in anxiety

And incidentally all those things happened in the same period of my life.

feggotdesu:

dating me means dating my anxiety and my random spouts of depression it means dating my panic attacks at 11pm or 2 am or 5am or anytime of the day for that matter it means dating my mood swings where i get really upset over everything about me and all my insecurities and how i’m not good enough because i’m never good enough

dating me means that i know how you feel when you don’t feel good enough because i don’t either it means that when you call with a panic attack at 11pm or 2 am or 5am or anytime of the day it matters because i called you last thursday and the tuesday before that it means dating my mood swings too but you know we swing together it means dating my depression too and knowing that i understand i understand and i’ll be patient with you because i understand

(Source: ewpeanutbutter-blog)