What they don’t mention about #growingupwithstrictparents:
- The resentment that begins to build up and damage your relationship with your parents because your missing out on being a kid.
- The self destructive tendencies that develop when you get your freedom.
- Extreme Behaviour that can be dangerous because you feel as if you have to catch up on all the life you have been missing.
- A constant sadness that your never going to live life enough.
- Developing anxiety over doing things as simple as riding the bus.
- Massive issues with authority.
- Fear of commitment because you feel as though it is going to tie you down and take away from your freedom again.
etc…
‘ - Fear of commitment because you feel as though it is going to tie you down and take away from your freedom again. ‘ This is is me in a nutshell
All of this.
#compulsive lying all the time because youre so used to doing so that telling the truth is weird#being terrified of asking if a friend can come over#hiding everything you feel and then exploding#being manipulative#The self destructive tendencies that develop when you get your freedom#that one is the realest one tho (via howlingcutemando)
Feeling like you’re useless when you’re not doing something productive.
- never being able to stand up for yourself, because of your inherent fear you will be severely punished - even if you are in the right
- feeling you are never right, even if you are
- caving easily to abusive situations, because you grew up learning how to be controlled, that it was “wrong” to exercise power, that it was “wrong” to defend yourself, and not knowing anything about self-respect or having self-esteem
- second-guessing yourself nonstop
- hiding your entire life from your strict family - even if it means they go to their deathbeds not knowing what has happened to you, because it will just mean you earn only their disapproval or disgust.
- non-stop self-hate
- non-stop paranoia
-feeling like you have to “prove” yourself
-never feeling good enough
-developing insecurities that eventually grow but stay hidden because you’ve been told that maybe asking a question a few times extra just to be sure everything’s ok is “weird”
-being afraid to make friendships, reach out, or go out because your afraid of doing something wrong
-always being afraid that someone is mad at you
-getting criticized for years on end then getting questioned on all sides as to why you’re so negative about yourself
I’m glad I’ve been outgrowing a lot of this, and moving out worked to be a good thing between me and my parents.
To all of my friends, this is the reason why I do the things I do
I don’t always relate so heavily to these kinds of things but damn if I don’t feel 99% of these